Friday, October 4, 2002

looking at her

I dreamed of a cotillion
There were hundreds of people
I stared ahead
12 o'clock from my place

My feelings were elusive
My mind was pondering.
Ceaseless.

It was hard to smile
Much less to laugh
Nothing could make me feel better

I remember it vividly
Each and every single move
Like a hawk, watching closely
Very closely. Eerie.

My chest tightened
Huge lump in my throat.
Speechless.
Hatred and anger
came across the unforgiving heart

I tried to restrain
the feeling to strangle
The tension was unbearable

No one. No one.
Nobody could take it from me
It was too fragile to even mention
Yet not easily be broken

I wasn't alone
I was looking at her
She was lonely
A tear, dropped...