Hang

Just as I was thinking about it
I was given a chance to ask out loud
But you didn't answer me today
Just like you ignored me before
And I am still left hanging

Wild flower

I used to follow the wind
The one that allows me to breathe
I strived so hard to win the game
I smiled even when I could hear the sound of my heart breaking
But I wanted to feel the air
Knowing that you were there

Time passed and I was gasping in the end
I couldn't see my light
I didn't know what was right
I didn't feel your presence
I kept on making assumptions
I was the wild flower on the meadow
Blown away under the shadow

I lost you
And that day, you lost me too

Iri

Aku hanya dengar sunyi
Pandangan tak jelas
Bingkasku malas

Aku hanya dengar sepi
Jiwa berantakan
Sayup tak kelihatan

Kenapa masih ku ulang lagi memori langkahku
Kenapa terkesan lagi setiap yg berlaku
Kenapa masih mahu kembali ke situ
Sedang tahu sakitnya tak tertanggung
Sedang faham rindunya tak berpenghujung

Winning

So today I have won
I wanted us both broken
I wanted us drenched in hate
I wanted you to stop calling
I wanted myself to stop hoping
I told myself time will heal my heart
I told myself I need you to be apart
I told myself this is for the best
I told myself you are just like the rest
.
.
.
But why do I feel like I have lost?

Putus

Putus asanya pada bintang maka dia mengadu pada rembulan
Rembulan tak ada di waktu siang tertunggu dia seharian
Jatuh hatinya pada angin yang menderu memaksa dia berlari
Cintanya pada ombak memaksa dia di sini
Tapi jiwanya tak kuat, hatinya lemah tersiat
Dia akhirnya berjalan ditemani sepi
Kaca pun dipandang seperti api
Takut pada bayangan sendiri
Bungkamkah dia pada kata-kata terakhir?
Bisakah dipejam mata kala rindu hadir?
Langkah bisu tapi membingit di telinga
Ternyata bicara dia di fikirnya saja
Ternyata angin tadi cuma gelodak di sukma
Ternyata bulan dan bintang...
takkan nampak di balik mentari membahang
Ternyata sedari semalam dia cuma seorang

Dead

You have no idea how much I love you
Instead, you keep having doubts about the truth
I'm letting you go because I'm tired of having to prove it to you
I don't know what else you want me to do
I have done everything that I can
I have done so much not to hurt you
But you don't know how to love me back
You keep leaving me drained, an emotional wreck
You just don't know how to appreciate
With time passed, the feelings I had is dead

Me

The dust on the unused table 
The grains from the last bread eaten
The quiet sound in the kitchen
The time you set on my clock
The cold unmade bed
The laughter missed, the warmth lost
.
This is me and my memory

Too much promises

I promise to keep my promise
To love you only when you love me
To miss you only when you miss me
And to be by your side until you leave me

I promise to keep my promise
To tell you when I am no longer yours
To let you know when all hope is lost
To inform you when my smile is forced

I promise to keep my promise
To stop holding these feelings tight
To avoid arguments when I think I am right
To let you go without a fight

I promise…
to keep my promise

Rentan

Aku mencintaimu seperti air

Di gunung jatuh berderu

Di pantai menghentam pilu

Bertakung di kali

Berlinangan di sungai sepi

Seiring dengan janji

Aku mencintaimu seperti air

Kadang deras tapi menyakitkan

Kadang perlahan tapi mendamaikan

Yang gratis itu ada

Tapi aku terbeli dek kata-kata

Aku terbuai dek belaian manja

Aku mencintaimu seperti air

Pahit masih digenang

Di permukaan nampak tenang

Perit terpaksa ditelan

Lantaran jadi satu keperluan

Tanpamu di sisi, aku rentan

Aku mencintaimu seperti air

Desirnya bertalu-talu rancak

Di kejauhan tak nampak

Berdekatan terlalu berombak

Memandang rintik terasa sunyi

Lebatnya datang dipohon pergi

Half Awake

I can't sleep 
Words are swirling and twirling inside my head
I can't stop
Thinking about what you said
You told me you weren't thinking
And that is why you apologized
It's like listening to an empty jar
The silence is actually ringing
It's like being half awake
Half hoping for a miracle
Half craving for something sensible
The drums are wheezing passed me
The blurry vision couldn't stop me
You don't know your strength
Until the pain you feel becomes unbearable
Crawling beneath your skin
And you thought this is the ending
While part of you is still planning and dreaming 
I am not attached to you
So leave me in this cloud
Contain me in this bubble
I am never going out
Questions won't be answered
I'm done asking

Burn

You have no idea, do you?
How I trusted your tale, your judgment,
your way of mincing words into crazy observations
How I am always impressed by your lack of care
Even if I knew, since day one, that this is not fair
This is hardwork
Piling up memories just to dump it
Collecting pieces of the heart just to trash it
Compiling feelings just to watch it ... burn

Ghost

Welcome to the end
That arrived faster than I imagined
That is here earlier than I was hoping
You're the shadow behind my curtain
Haunting my thoughts and driving me nuts
I believed I was strong
But one hello apparently could burn the house down
I can't be home and not feel your presence
I can't be alone and not filled by remembrance 
You have never even been here
But you're the ghost that lingers

The moon is dark

This garden is lonely

I asked for the wind but nothing is blowing

For no answer can be seen

I am the empress, but I ask no apologies

How could the moon thinks otherwise,  was it an epiphany?