Monday, July 18, 2016

Kadang

kadang kangen pada jiwanya
pada tulus pandangan dia
mengerti tiap kata
tahu tiap bicara
tiba tiapku mahu, muncul saatku perlu

kadang kangen pada senyumnya
tiada rentetan langsung
tapi selalu bersambung
sekian kali tiada penghujung
bisa berbicara tanpa selindung

kadang tertawa mengenang sikapnya
tegas membahas bilaku mengadu
meneliti masalah seolah serba tahu
dia ... penyembuh laraku
semakin jauh, semakin rindu

kadang mungkin tersilap kata
kadang ada aku terasa
dia ... selalu hadir di dalam mimpi
malam berlalu takkan sunyi

kadang aku tertanya
pada siang di celah kesibukan menggila
apa ada terlintas aku di minda?

Sunday, July 3, 2016

This funny thing

Kalau I boleh pusingkan masa...
Kalau I boleh buat balik semua ni...
Kalau waktu tu I tahu macam mana rasa kehilangan you...
- Azad, Istanbul Aku Datang (2012)

Bila dua hidup dah sebati, tak semudah itu untuk dileraikan. Awak jugak yg cakap macam tu kan?

- Dian, Istanbul Aku Datang (2012)

Kalau awak rasa apa yang saya rasa...
Tolonglah, Dian. Jangan pergi.

- Harris, Istanbul Aku Datang (2012)

Love is a funny thing. You don't know what will happen tomorrow, you don't even know what will happen in the next hour. The only certainty is that nothing is certain. But you love. And you share your hopes and dreams thinking you will live forever. You love unconditionally. Because love with conditions is not love. You love how he looks at you. You love how he holds your hand. You love when he stares at you, not saying anything. You love when he believes in you even when you're not making much sense. That feeling when he drops everything just to be with you. That feeling when he drives for hours just to see you smile. He brings a bouquet of flowers as a surprise. He says ok without hesitation when you're in need of a favor. He still has the small card you sent from 10 years ago. You still read his texts from the same year. You can cry for hours and wake up laughing. Or you can be on top of the world for a minute only to realize that it was a mistake. You make decisions based on now. Your current happiness. Your current importance. Because trying to create reasons for things yet to come... is not a definition of living.

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Surprise

Anger that lingers
That disappointment
Baseless accusation
Painful realizations

Friday, June 24, 2016

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Terasa aneh
Bila kau di sana mencari perhatian
Bila kau pula minta diperhatikan

Terasa lucu
Bila kau mahu penjelasan
Atas apa yang kau mulakan

Terasa pelik
Bila kau tanyakan jawapan
Pada persoalan yang pernah aku utarakan

Kau tak punya masa
Tiada ruang untuk berbicara
Tiada ruang untuk bersua

Bukankah dari awal sudah dijanji?
Menyayangi hanya bila disayangi kembali
Memaklumi saat hatiku bukan milikmu lagi
Tidak bertengkar bila aku di pihak yang benar
Dan membiarkan kau pergi tanpa mencabar

Maaf
Aku tak punya hati
Langsung tak mempeduli
Aku memang kejam begini
Kerana jiwa yang parah terluka
Tak bisa serahkan peluang kedua
Tidakkah diamku ini membunuh rasa?

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

The Door

Shall I knock on this door?
To see what I have left
Finding the space I still deserve
Looking for moments hanging on the wall
Not sure if I really need a closure
Maybe I will never put it to rest
Maybe this is my learning curve
A reminder to never give my all

Dianne
30 May 2016

Sunday, May 29, 2016

Grand Bazaar

This building stood against time
Cracked at all phases
Blended til tasteless
Drenched in sweat and tears
Beyond curiousity and being furious

This building stood against time
Each path lined with history
Every corner bears a memory
The wall bounced with an anthology
The floor drowned in beautiful poetry

This building stood against time
No threat can burn the roof
No pity can make it move
This fortress is mine and mine only
Alas, you are not worthy to challenge me

Dianne
Istanbul 26 May 2016

Antara

Cuba menghambat keruh
Langit matikan guruh
Deru bersilih ganti
Merungkai mimpi malam tadi

Beda dingin jendela
Antara Istiklal dan Galata
Dipisah tiga puluh anak tangga
Apa hatinya masih ada?

Dianne
Galata Apt. 24 May 2016

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Realization

I am watching you watching him
Being in your own bubble
I am looking at you looking at him
Dreaming the impossible

Friday, April 1, 2016

Senja

Melayang satu detik
Bersilih senyum, amarah
Pada awan rasa terusik
Makin menjauh, lenakah?
Merindu bingit ombak
Tangan kita menyentuh deru yang serupa
Mengharap pada senja
Kaki kita memijak pasir yang sama

D
SZB - JHB
30 March 2016

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Bintang

Tiada seri, tiada cahaya
Tiada berita, tiada tertanya
Karena rasaku sudah mati
Hilang peduli
Bisa tertusuk duri
Masih lapang pergi