I promise to keep my promise
To love you only when you love me
To miss you only when you miss me
And to be by your side until you leave me
I promise to keep my promise
To tell you when I am no longer yours
To let you know when all hope is lost
To inform you when my smile is forced
I promise to keep my promise
To stop holding these feelings tight
To avoid arguments when I think I am right
To let you go without a fight
I promise…
to keep my promise
I can't sleep
Words are swirling and twirling inside my head
I can't stop
Thinking about what you said
You told me you weren't thinking
And that is why you apologized
It's like listening to an empty jar
The silence is actually ringing
It's like being half awake
Half hoping for a miracle
Half craving for something sensible
The drums are wheezing passed me
The blurry vision couldn't stop me
You don't know your strength
Until the pain you feel becomes unbearable
Crawling beneath your skin
And you thought this is the ending
While part of you is still planning and dreaming
I am not attached to you
So leave me in this cloud
Contain me in this bubble
I am never going out
Questions won't be answered
I'm done asking
You have no idea, do you?
How I trusted your tale, your judgment,
your way of mincing words into crazy observations
How I am always impressed by your lack of care
Even if I knew, since day one, that this is not fair
This is hardwork
Piling up memories just to dump it
Collecting pieces of the heart just to trash it
Compiling feelings just to watch it ... burn
