Half Awake

I can't sleep 
Words are swirling and twirling inside my head
I can't stop
Thinking about what you said
You told me you weren't thinking
And that is why you apologized
It's like listening to an empty jar
The silence is actually ringing
It's like being half awake
Half hoping for a miracle
Half craving for something sensible
The drums are wheezing passed me
The blurry vision couldn't stop me
You don't know your strength
Until the pain you feel becomes unbearable
Crawling beneath your skin
And you thought this is the ending
While part of you is still planning and dreaming 
I am not attached to you
So leave me in this cloud
Contain me in this bubble
I am never going out
Questions won't be answered
I'm done asking